Cars and Traffic

Because my dad died from a car accident, I have developed a fear of traffic.

In January my husband and I were in a very scary car accident. If we had not been buckled up or my husband had not turned the car a little to avoid the accident, we might both be dead. The car was totaled and I had bumps and bruises but other than that we were ok. We were going about 60mph going through a light that had just turned yellow. A Bronco decided to turn left in front of us. We hit the Bronco in the middle of the intersection.

Not only was this my first car accident but my dad had just died three months previous from a car accident. I was a wreck. Honestly I have not driven the car very much since then. When my husband drives I am so jumpy and nearly scream at yellow lights. I get so unnerved in cars.

I hate walking across the street, even in crosswalks at traffic lights. I feel like I am going to get hit by a driver who isn't paying attention. Every time I cross the street I imagine myself getting hit and flying through the air, landing 10 feet away. I can't help it but to have these images fly through my mind. I even imagine the pain that I would feel if I were hit. It's a little disturbing. I know this sounds weird.

And of course, there are the commercials and movie scenes with car accidents that just about leave me in tears.

I don't know if any of you have experienced something like this, maybe related to the death of someone close to you. I may be alone in this, but I doubt it.